unforgetable night

"Having friends that could help me escape from my deepest nightmare made me a better person.."

Yes. Last night was totally a very special momentum for me. I had so many realizations in life. I thought I could handle and solve my own problem but I realized that I really can't do it myself. I need advisers to comment or even give extreme opinions to the things I've done. This way, I would know the things I have to know, change some things that should be done right and learn from the things that I was aware of doing so.

Honestly, I felt embarassed while talking in front of them but I have to be more courageous to speak and confess everything just to make myself relieved and free from guilt. I knew that they may somehow think of anything against me but it didn't bother me that much because I know that they are one of the best person's I should consult about the things I've been through. And undeniably, they were really there to listen and give the best advices they can give for my own sake.

A million thanks to Inay, Conney, Arianne and Happy face. And most especially to our savior Lord Jesus Christ for the enlightenment He gave me. Indeed, I learned much from the mistakes I've done. And I'd swear to change, for the better.

happy happy happy

"I post a blog today because I'm feeling really happy..still do..=)"

Yesterday, I realized that I still have a blog to feed..I forgot to update my blog because of studying much on my notes..and I had no time to write..wew!

Even if it was already a few days ago when I felt extreme happiness, I haven't still recovered from it..haha! LOLZ.

I got good scores in my English and Filipino Final Examination last Wednesday..and I am absolutely satisfied with the result of my sacrifices. I eagerly wanted to pass that's why I studied so hard. weeee! I never expect to get such scores. Thanks to Him up above for guiding and helping me during my exams..

Everything else just seemed so beautiful this week..I hope I could also be happy with my scores in my other subjects. Lord, please. T.T

Thank you! :)

"You bring out the best in me like no one else can do.." :))

..wew! I never thought of this! I feel so blessed..the warm hug of my friends makes me think that I am not alone, really. They were there all along..they give all the best advices they can..whenever I cry, they sit beside me and let me lean on their shoulders..and when they see me wearing a frown face, they will immediately ask me what's wrong. I am so grateful to have such friends like them. They are the ones who understands me most of the time and they strengthens me everytime I feel like I'm gonna breakdown and cry.

Another important person in my life who still sends his care and concern for me is my long time elementary crush who went out to be my boyfriend during my highschool years..although we ended up so sudden last summer and felt so much pain within each other, we still manage to say "hi" and smile whenever we come across the corridors of our school..in short, we're still friends..and i'm super duper glad that we are. :)) I also can't deny the fact that i'm happy everytime he calls at home just to make sure that we're doing fine. My mother and brother loves him and treats him as part of our family. But we are not thinking nor planning to get back to each other's arms again and begin to have a boyfriend-girlfriend relationship..we just enjoy every single moment that we do together with my family. Thanks so much to him for being so nice and generous to me and to my siblings. :))


Let go..

"If you love someone, let them go. If they return, they were always yours. And if they don't, they never were.."

We really have to accept the fact that there are some people who chooses to leave and decides to just cut off all means of communications with the one they love for some reasons. Pathetic are the ones that has left alone. They say that guys who leaves their girls may somehow regret the decision they have made soon after they see how their ex-girlfriend had already moved on. Sometimes, I could hardly understand why boys take their pride on top of their negative attitudes. That is indeed one of the main reasons why girls tend up to break up with their special someone.no matter how much she loves him. I know that there are such corporate explanations for this confusing question..and I am willing to listen to someone who could bravely answer the thing I could not understand.

Being left behind for a couple of months now gained so much changes in me. Not seeing him for three days makes me miss him. I don't know why I couldn't see him more often these days..probably because God doesn't want us to really see each other. Phew! A lot of people always give me advices and comments like, "Ayaw na ato niya nik..he's not good for you.." and yesterday, my sister gave her latest comment about him..in short, she doesn't like him for me.. I do understand and I am going to follow their advices because I myself know that he's no good for me..I will let him go..and I know i'll be ok. :))

when LOVE takes over..

Usually, the heart rules over the mind.

That's why teenagers nowadays doesn't think of the possible effect or result of what they are doing. They just want to be free and enjoy life as teenagers of today's generation..

LOVE. Does teenagers really know the real meaning of this word? If I were to answer, I don't really know the true connotation and how to deal with this certain powerful thing. All I know is I follow what my heart is trying to tell me..whether it may be a significant love or just a mere infatuation. I have been very careless ever since I entered the kingdom of love. Not to the person I love, but to myself indeed. Even if I know that I would get hurt, I still persist to love that person because no matter what I do, I can't bear the fact that I cannot properly concentrate on something I am presently doing if I got a dillema about him. Obviously, it's really different when you're so much in love and you're so much hurt. These two things makes a teenager's life meaningful and on the other side, miserable. Some even attempt to do bad things against themselves when they think they can't take it anymore. Others just forget everything that had happened to them for they just think that it's useless anymore since it ended already. People who haven't been in love might say that people whose undergoing this kind of situation are kinda over acting because of surrogating such things like this. But maybe someday they would know how it feels to be in pain when they finally experience being hurt by the person they love.

With the situation I am undergoing right now, I could really say that it is so hard. I'm finding ways to let myself enjoy life while I'm still living. I still have lots of things to prove, so much to experience, so much to do and so much to say. hehe. God is still having plenty of plans for me. I know someday I can get through this sorrow. Perhaps it's just a matter of time. And prayers will help me move on from this major major kind of pain and sadness.


how could you do this to me? i don't deserve this pain, i don't deserve this extreme sadness. I am not worth all of this. I had loved you so much yet you just throw me like a trash..where in fact, you're the one who's supposed to be thrown away because your nothing, you are simply just like that. I hate you for acting as if you care.. Well, anyway, thanks for making me feel this way..now, I finally realized that you're not really worth having my love.. I'd rather give it to someone who's willing to keep it and will never break it.


Since the day I got to know him, i felt something so unexplainable. Everytime I see his eyes, i can't help but to always stare at him..is this what they called "CRUSH"?? One time, we had a chance to talk..He shared something about him, and i did the same thing too..Since then, we became friends.. :) After a month of getting to know each other, he told me that he likes me.. I was ashame to tell him what I feel for him too so I hide it and never gave him even a hint..But one day, I haven't controlled myself..

I guess this isn't just a mere admiration nor just a simple crush at all..This is more like having someone you can call your own..Although I can't say this feeling will be forever, but I think this is already what they called "LOVE".

so cold!

for almost five weeks of being a pylon affiliate, i'm having this very nice feeling of always staying in the pylon office..wanna know why? because it's just so cold! >.<>

which is which?

it's just so hard to choose between the two things you love.. :(

Both of them really impressed me so much..they've been my inspiration since before..they both do things that makes me happy..and until now, they are still there, giving me that very special love which makes me more confused..i know i should not let anyone of them wait for nothing..maybe one of these days, i will be having enough courage to tell them..oh God! one thing that will really change is the treatment.. :( for sure i'll be having a hard time thinking about the very important decision that i will be making.. (sigh)

affiliates pictorial

i am very glad and proud to be part of the pylon..during my few stays in pylon, i am already experiencing many things which i haven't experience before such as this very fun and beautiful pictorial with my co-affiliates..i really copied our pictures to my usb so that i can upload it on my facebook..hehe :)

a new beginning

Welcome College life!
Highschool life has ended..and now, I'm facing another chapter of my life..So much has changed..including my physical appearance, they said. I have so many adjustments..It's really different now that I'm already a college student..my classes aren't continuous unlike before when I was still a high school student..I guess this is just the start of another sacrifice and competition as well..College life is definitely challenging!
When I entered this institution, I prepared myself for unexpected things to happen..First day of school was quite fun and tiring at the same time..I met new friends and instructors..