Hopeful Tries

Sometimes, I breathe deep and ask myself with a sad tone, “Why are people so reckless and dishonest and disrespectful at times?”

And I end up with a lot of reasons popping one by one over my pre-occupied head. The reasons are half understandable and half unacceptable.

Half understandable because, people are naturally like this and like that. They usually do things for their benefit without thinking how that one person on the corner feels.

Half unacceptable because, people take advantage and abuse the goodness and humility you show just to please them for work’s sake. They already let this “something evil” overpower their hearts and minds without thinking for a terrible effect that results to a huge gap between you two.

I always try to evaluate myself. Perhaps I’m the one to be blamed for these kinds of attitudes they possess. But somehow, I try to get back my thoughts of blaming myself, because in the first place, I am trying my best. The only problem is, they wouldn’t just cooperate.

I know and I believe that positive results and joyful rewards cannot be obtained if these dispositions continue to prevail. But I’ll try once more to keep on thinking for upright aftermaths in order to have controlled, honest, and respectful associates, and to end up with a progressive and peaceful workplace.

Sad Awful Love Song

Once upon a time
There was no you in my life.
I was content and happy
With the little things I got from them.
No silent cries and sad goodbyes
Just pure smiles and a healthy heart.

No wishes upon a star
But there was you who came unexpectedly.
I was surprised and startled
Yet I opened my door and let you came in.
Got no second thoughts and confusing queries
Only hopeful tries and an open mind.

One day, I shared our story under Mr. Sun
And he showed me how delightfully sunny he was.
He blessed us with his shades of yellow and abundant vibrancy
That made us stronger like ultimate fighters forever.
Never had silly arguments and blue loneliness
Merely joyful hearts and sparkling eyes.

But one night, I talked to baby moon
With little drops of tears on my right cheek.
Innocent baby moon got worried and moved closer to me.
He asked me what was wrong about our happy love story
And I said, “Baby moon, my everything was gone.”
He hastily went somewhere far and just left me a sad, awful, love song.

Oh Paris! Je T'aime ♥.♥

When I first saw you
Nobody made me glisten like you do
Right there I knew you were a good idea
‘Cause you made me wanna hunt you like a media

Your heavenly stature struck me
Like the waters that spark on a morning sea
You filled me with much excitement
I can’t wait to reach you in an instant!

With you, listed as my dream
Will later on be viewed with extreme gleam
I’ll make sure you won’t live like a tiny fantasy
‘Cause very soon I’ll taste you like a sweet cotton candy!

You Don’t Care At All

Last night when we spoke again
I was glad, and you don’t know…
That same night when we talked over
You were sad, and that I know…

You tried to get resembled
But I was too hesitant
You heard things like:
“No. Please. Let’s just be friends.”
And it hurt you, it hurt you a lot.

From that moment you stopped
Gone are the times that make me glad
No more mentioning about everything
Because you don’t care at all.

The next day you didn’t call
I was sad, and you don’t know…
That same day you did the ball rolling
You were happy, and that I know…

You dried your tears from then on
And stayed with your tough decision
I heard things like:
“I guess you were right. I have to let go.”
And it bumped me, it bumped me so.

From that moment you moved along
Gone are the moments that made you alone
No more holding on about everything
Because you don’t care at all.

I saw your name on one trending site
And you were busy with some new things
It reminds me of how it was before
Back when you still care about us a little more.

Never Really Changed

You returned and brought your heart again
Already fixed with lots of regrets
I turned away and left you with a sad song
It hurt you but you never gave up, so...

I was learning to love you again
Though I never really stopped doing it
I tried to move along when you bid goodbye
But it didn't worked out even for a while

So here we are again
Back to where we first begin
Chances were given; Choices were made
And now I see, you still haven't changed

You plead to have it back
Love and trust that didn't last
I was hopeful enough to forbid you
But months after, you threw it all again...

So where is your heart now?
Where is the love you said you have?
Tell me where could I find it...
'Cause I can't even feel a bit of it!

I don't know if I could love you a little better
Cause it seemed like I don't really matter
Unless you're alone and you've got no one
That's when you need me, but I'll never be there...

I'll never be there...
Yes I'll never be there...
I never want to be there again
'Cause you never really changed.


“Friendship is born at that moment when one person says to another:
"What! You too? I thought I was the only one.” 

Thumbs up to that very accurate quote up above! I am so much happy and grateful these past few days because I have a good friend of mine whom I can sing happiness with, someone who blends with me identically. We’re now closer because we have lots of similarities… and its super fun!

Let me introduce you to my beautiful and talented friend:

She’s Faith Garnet C. Patagoc, a junior Education student majoring in Pre-school and I call her “Peyt”. Most of us her friends call her that way.

She’s smart, skinny, preppy, bubbly, thoughtful, and she has a cute voice. She’s pretty in her own simple way. She loves to draw, to polish her nails with her nice work-of-art, to explore the wonders of the world, and to fly to Paris to fulfill her dream of becoming a great fashion designer by God’s grace.

She’s a good person, and she’s much of a happy-go-lucky teenage girl. But beware! Because once you do anything stupid to her, she’s going to make sure you’ll end up dead with her words although you’re literally and absolutely alive! Hahahaha!

We have this certain similarity and that is… we both love Taylor Swift! And our love for her grows stronger with our friendship every day! We have lots of plans like having our own T-Swift T-Shirt, strolling around down town to buy Swiftie stuffs like our ever-favorite headbands, plans of searching for her poster in all the department stores here in our place and buy one or more, another is celebrating her birthday on the 13th of December and buy cupcakes (Taylor’s favorite) with #13 candle on top… and we’ll blow it together! And our newest and ambitious plans of having a photo shoot with our thrifted vintage dresses just like Taylor’s. Aren’t they super cool and fun? I’m pretty sure these plans would really make our friendship sturdier like ever!

With all the growing plans that we have, one has finally realized! And that is our Taylor Swift blog which contains pictures, poems, drawings, and a lot more Swiftie stuffs for Taylor and for all the other Swifties like us! We posted one poem which we made within just a few hours. Isn't it pretty amazing? It’s entitled “The Story of Swift Magic” and it is solely dedicated to our dearest idol, Taylor Swift.

We’re planning to add more stuffs on it so we’re hoping that you could visit our humble blog, http://taylorific3138.blogspot.com , and enjoy every single word and image we put for you our dearest swifties, and of course for our ever-beloved Taylor Swift. And oh, Faith has recently joined Blogger so please check her out and shower her some blogger love! Here’s her address: http://petzdy98.blogspot.com.
Thank you in advance Swifties and much-loved readers! ;)

Wishing to have this girl stay in my life forever so I could have someone to deal with my crazy undertakings and my modest beginnings… Love you Peyt! *wink*

Flowers On My Nails

Hello there!

How were the first few days of your November? Well mine, it just went on smooth and fine. Although I had some matters with some people and some things, but I just didn’t let them affect me too much.

Anyway, last November 2 was All Soul’s Day and my aunt suddenly asked us to come with her somewhere… somewhere cool and relaxing! It seemed like she really wanted to be in a certain place where she could unwind from the cooking stress she got after her 40th birthday last November 1st (She cooked almost all the dishes and ended up so happy and fulfilled because all of it were deliciously perfect!).

While on our way down town, she told us to look around and find an open salon where we could have our nails cleaned. We happened to pass by many great salons but unfortunately they were all closed. We tried to look for another and luckily we found Favi Salon open! Hurray!

We went inside and were accommodated very well. I got my toes and fingernails cleaned and polished. Here’s what I decided to let the manicurist do for me:

Colorless nails with little flowers on the corner. Aren’t they so cute, clean, and simple? Well I really believe in the cliché word, “Simplicity is beauty.” And that is indeed the main reason why I just wanted to polish my nails this way. And the output absolutely made me so happy!

The Three Days

Two days ago…

…the past returned and sent me an email with his kind of a prudish approach. And expectedly, it ruined the earlier part of my beautiful day. He was asking some non-sense and stupid questions prior to his own self. Well, I didn't intend to mind too much because again, that was past.

He was past. A forgotten history.


…when I was busy editing the things to be delivered to our external campuses, I suddenly received a text from an unregistered number—an unknown number. And when I tried to read the digits one by one, it became so familiar. And I said, “Ah okay. So it’s him.”

I opened the text message to know his intention. The kind of approach he was showing was the typical type he was before—still hadn't changed. And so he sent me messages like somebody who never messed up with me. Wow. What a treacherous man he is.


…he still sends off his greetings and blablabla and I really want to stop him. It’s disgusting, annoying, and I just don’t like it!

But, I realized I should not be that bitter; instead I should be a forgiver. Somehow, that ruthless game he played needs total forgiveness. I don’t wanna be hooked up too much cause again, that was past. I went on with the good flow until he asked if he could call and sing me a song.

I said no, of course! I was surprised and I wasn’t ready to hear his voice. On that certain juncture, I think it’s never the same as before. There really must be a gap-- just a little gap. So he would not expect something in return.

But he insisted… Oh myyy! I stopped for a moment and thought deep.

“Okaaaaayyyy. It’ll just be a song, Nik. You’ll just listen to it. No words will be coming out of your mouth. Why won’t you just give him a chance?”

I pressed the reply button, typed “Ok.”, and sent it. Seconds after, my ringtone played and I picked up my phone. He sang an unfamiliar song with a lovely tune and a… a beautiful voice from no other than him. He’s talented. He sings very well. And that’s so sweet of him to sing me a full song of his new favorite record perhaps.

When I first heard of the first syllable of the first word he sang, I was like being situated in a very romantic place with tiny blinking lights surrounding, sitting in front of a magnificent table setting, and smelling roses from everywhere while listening to somebody who’s singing a beautiful song with a piano accompaniment in it. A perfect one indeed. I listened to him carefully with my headphones on, and begun to smile with much appreciation.

When the song ended, he immediately pressed the end call (because he knows I don’t wanna talk to him over the phone or even in person) and texted me a “goodnight” on a very hot afternoon. He said he got tired from their basketball practice and sleeping will be of big help. Of course I agreed, and I went on blogging. Well, everything happens for a reason. And I still believe on this cliché statement after all.

At School During Enrollment

Skinny jeans. Short skirts. Faded colors.
Loosed shirts. Long sleeves. Mini dresses.
Skin tone flats. Heavy high heels. Cute doll shoes.
Silky straight. Bubbly curls. Messy hairdos.

Slowly walking. Half running. Feeling lost.
Smiling. Laughing. Tears falling.
Solitary. Accompanied. More than five.
Overjoyed. Getting stressed. Very tired.

Rainbow skies. Pouring rain. Sunny day.
Dancing trees. Falling leaves. Happy grasses.
Cherry red walls. Lily white windows. Azure blue roofs.
Busy streets. Dumped trashes. Magical tree in the center.

Snake-like lines. Frown faces. Closed doors.
Angry screams. Hopeless dreams. Wasted time.
Hungry tummy. Thirsty throat. Pale lips.
Wiped sweat. Smiled. Carried on.

They waited. And persisted. Now succeeded.

*I wrote this for about thirty minutes as I was observing closely to what my co-students do as they struggle towards reaching their goal—and that is to take a deep breath after getting in hand their own enrollment slips.

She can't fall

Once or twice is enough
My pain is real rough
It can’t be tamed with your laugh
Yes. Please go. She isn’t tough.

But if you want to, you can call
Don’t be scared, she won’t throw you like a ball
And if you beg, she’ll love you small
But darling, she can’t fall. She can’t fall.

You made things difficult for her
That she can’t be with you anymore
Every little thing you had, you tore
You’re a bad news she can’t adore.

Yes you’re a bad news she can’t adore and she can’t fall in love with you anymore.

What's wrong with you?

You’ve been an honest lover
A seeker for something better
We were happily in love one September
But you’ve changed a lot, you’re now a pretender

Somehow it became my query
Your actions seems to be a huge fantasy
I don’t wanna believe in what I see
You’re now showing off pomposity

And you always do what you wanna do
Without keeping words that must be true
You should know you’re turning me blue
Now tell me what’s wrong with you?


She’s somebody that I used to know
A sincere smile to her I always show
She’s not as white as heaven snow
But talks like evil and thinks I’m too low

She’s a good friend, always my seatmate
She’s always around, never comes late
But everything I do, she has something to potate
And tears running down, making me suffocate

During class time, her stare’s a little crazy
Seems like she hates seeing me merry
But I kill her with my smile that’s too lovely
And she can’t do anything but to be madly envy

The Long Wait is Over!

After how many months of waiting, Taylor Swift’s 4th album entitled RED, is
finally out of the market with its 16 tracks unveiled. Oh myyy! It really made me so happy! ^_^

But since her album won’t reach here in my place, I decided to download all of her songs on YouTube just to hear and get in touch to all of them.  I downloaded the sixteen tracks on Red album, plus Ronan, and the other three deluxe tracks I also found which were not included in her album. I knew that she has thirty-five songs all in all but cannot be released since the album is track-limited.

When I first listened to every new song in her album, I knew they would all be my favorite ones this season. All of them are awesome like her! I couldn't really express how excited I was when October 22 was coming. How much more now that it’s released!

Before, I said I am a Swiftie.
And today I’d still say I am a Swiftie.
A true Swiftie. Forever and Always!


Credits to Google for the pretty images.

Green fingernails

Sometimes, I get close to being so girly for a day like dressing up with my ribbon head band or like polishing my nails with my favorite color—green. This nail polish was actually an unexpected present from a very close friend of mine. He gave me this because he said it doesn't fit on his oh-so-long nails plus his white complexion. It glitters when lightened through the sunshine. It cannot be wiped away too easily. It's just so simple yet it adds color to your beautiful day. Feels like your elegant when you're using this.  I should say it perfectly fits on me when I’m having my long nails.

So here’s a collage picture of my green nails a couple of days ago. ^_^

I so love it! ♥.♥

I knew you were trouble

Here’s another song from my ever-favorite singer/songwriter Taylor Swift, which is actually one of her favorites in her forthcoming album “Red”.

When I first heard of this song, it really made me click the replay button more than ten times. This is a super catchy poppy song which I know you would also love to listen.

The link for its YouTube lyric video is below, you can click it if you want to.