Disappointment

“..I thought he loves me. I thought he’s sincere. I thought he’s faithful. I thought he’s not like others. I thought he’s something I can be proud of. I thought his promises were true. I thought he could be a partner. I thought he’d never do that.."

unforgetable night

"Having friends that could help me escape from my deepest nightmare made me a better person.."

Yes. Last night was totally a very special momentum for me. I had so many realizations in life. I thought I could handle and solve my own problem but I realized that I really can't do it myself. I need advisers to comment or even give extreme opinions to the things I've done. This way, I would know the things I have to know, change some things that should be done right and learn from the things that I was aware of doing so.

Honestly, I felt embarassed while talking in front of them but I have to be more courageous to speak and confess everything just to make myself relieved and free from guilt. I knew that they may somehow think of anything against me but it didn't bother me that much because I know that they are one of the best person's I should consult about the things I've been through. And undeniably, they were really there to listen and give the best advices they can give for my own sake.

A million thanks to Inay, Conney, Arianne and Happy face. And most especially to our savior Lord Jesus Christ for the enlightenment He gave me. Indeed, I learned much from the mistakes I've done. And I'd swear to change, for the better.

happy happy happy

"I post a blog today because I'm feeling really happy..still do..=)"

Yesterday, I realized that I still have a blog to feed..I forgot to update my blog because of studying much on my notes..and I had no time to write..wew!

Even if it was already a few days ago when I felt extreme happiness, I haven't still recovered from it..haha! LOLZ.

I got good scores in my English and Filipino Final Examination last Wednesday..and I am absolutely satisfied with the result of my sacrifices. I eagerly wanted to pass that's why I studied so hard. weeee! I never expect to get such scores. Thanks to Him up above for guiding and helping me during my exams..

Everything else just seemed so beautiful this week..I hope I could also be happy with my scores in my other subjects. Lord, please. T.T

Thank you! :)

"You bring out the best in me like no one else can do.." :))

..wew! I never thought of this! I feel so blessed..the warm hug of my friends makes me think that I am not alone, really. They were there all along..they give all the best advices they can..whenever I cry, they sit beside me and let me lean on their shoulders..and when they see me wearing a frown face, they will immediately ask me what's wrong. I am so grateful to have such friends like them. They are the ones who understands me most of the time and they strengthens me everytime I feel like I'm gonna breakdown and cry.

Another important person in my life who still sends his care and concern for me is my long time elementary crush who went out to be my boyfriend during my highschool years..although we ended up so sudden last summer and felt so much pain within each other, we still manage to say "hi" and smile whenever we come across the corridors of our school..in short, we're still friends..and i'm super duper glad that we are. :)) I also can't deny the fact that i'm happy everytime he calls at home just to make sure that we're doing fine. My mother and brother loves him and treats him as part of our family. But we are not thinking nor planning to get back to each other's arms again and begin to have a boyfriend-girlfriend relationship..we just enjoy every single moment that we do together with my family. Thanks so much to him for being so nice and generous to me and to my siblings. :))

PS:

I LOVE THE PEOPLE WHO LOVES ME. :)) && I WILL FOREVER TREASURE THEM.

Let go..

"If you love someone, let them go. If they return, they were always yours. And if they don't, they never were.."

We really have to accept the fact that there are some people who chooses to leave and decides to just cut off all means of communications with the one they love for some reasons. Pathetic are the ones that has left alone. They say that guys who leaves their girls may somehow regret the decision they have made soon after they see how their ex-girlfriend had already moved on. Sometimes, I could hardly understand why boys take their pride on top of their negative attitudes. That is indeed one of the main reasons why girls tend up to break up with their special someone.no matter how much she loves him. I know that there are such corporate explanations for this confusing question..and I am willing to listen to someone who could bravely answer the thing I could not understand.

Being left behind for a couple of months now gained so much changes in me. Not seeing him for three days makes me miss him. I don't know why I couldn't see him more often these days..probably because God doesn't want us to really see each other. Phew! A lot of people always give me advices and comments like, "Ayaw na ato niya nik..he's not good for you.." and yesterday, my sister gave her latest comment about him..in short, she doesn't like him for me.. I do understand and I am going to follow their advices because I myself know that he's no good for me..I will let him go..and I know i'll be ok. :))